Mood: content
Listening to: death cab for cutie - transatlanticism

the atlantic was born today and I'll tell you how
the clouds above opened up and let it out

If I wrote an autobiography, I would title it Transpacificisms, modeled after the song "Transatlanticism" by Death Cab for Cutie. (If you're wondering why I'm writing about autobiographies at all, it's because on ~kktherabbit's LJ, he had a survey that asked this question. And by the way, Hayden, I think you'd like that song because of what we talked about yesterday - it's about that.)

I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
when the water filled every hole
and thousands upon thousands made an ocean
making islands where no island should go
oh no

I plan on majoring in business/economics in college. After getting my degree, I plan on moving to New York to work and live in a comfortable, cozy, and artistically decorated apartment in Manhattan (even if my parents have moved back to NYC by then - I want to live alone!). But I don't think I could be happy with just New York forever.

those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more

I'd move abroad at some point or another, probably in Asia (Tokyo-Beijing-Shanghai-Hong Kong-Jarkata-Manila cycle), and I'd be an expatriate again. Even Europe would be good. I wish that my dad took the job in London (if it had been Paris, my mother would have been overjoyed to go, so that David and I would be fluent in French), otherwise I would have that experience as well. I've grown up this way, so this is my way of life. I think the international experience is something that really shouldn't be missed, so I think I would like to have my kids experience that as well, before they go to a boarding school like Exeter at fourteen. I take pride in my rootlessness now - thanks to ~Allyekhrah for showing me that way of thinking.

the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
it seems farther than ever before
oh no

Because of leaving things behind to start anew, the many plane rides to and from places, the long distance friendships and relationships, I would title it Transpacificisms. That's the reason.

I need you so much closer...

In the song, it's probably referring to a person, and that's what I think of when I listen the song. But 'you' could be referring to something else, like a 'home' or a 'goal' perhaps. That's what I feel like my life is always chasing - new people to meet and new things to accomplish. Once one thing is finished, I immediately make a new goal for something new. If taken in a materialistic way (ie, wanting another luxury car after getting tired of your new BMW), I suppose it could be 'bad', but I like setting and achieving goals - and I don't like wasting things or spending money either. Goals makes me feel like I've gotten something good out of life.

I also find that I never regret anything that I've done in the past. Not my eating problems, not what kind of family I was born in, nothing. I don't know why, I just do. Maybe China has allowed me to see everything as a new experience, good or bad.

So come on, come on....

What would you title your autobiography?